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just updateing the blog because iam force to....but..yah its like been some time since i updated..

just gonna post what happen recently.....at last!!!its the hols!!jyeah!!got nothing plan..so i will be just stayin indoors..fuck!iam in love with this new song sang by rauzan and shino and the ish which now known as the crazy 88....they perform at the 10 year of local hip hop independent...at the art house recently..i really regret for not going...ccb!did i mention the title...?no i did not.its crazy 88..fuckin dope shit song!!of the benefit of the people who seriously got no no idea what i just said...they are one for our local rapper..but underground...all for them are like freakin awsome!!

you guys should see it for yourself...either add them at facebook or youtube(xs one regiment)

but best to add them...dont know them...go to my friends lists at facebook i got most of their adds....=).....and my darling ica is back for her hols!!i miss you slut!!and farah..plaese talk to me...

like i said to you....if anything...just anything.no matter how big or tiny the problem is...TALK TO ME BITCH!!why are you keepin it to yourself...huh?and this apply to all my sexy bitches...got problem..come and talk to me...i will always have you bitches back....=)back to farah...honey please talk to us!me and ica!!we are like seriously worried for you....please..a.s.a.p!!

but i just wanna say this..farah please this...

that fuckwit seriously dont derserve you!!sorry if i sound harsh..but iam just freakin mad at what he did to you...he is just like those fuckin bastard jerk out there who ought to go kill themself.. and i will be glad if they do that...then hurtin their our gf feeling...then they will give this i-dont-know look or i-dont-give-a-fuck look.-___-fuck them...they dont know how painful it feel..when you been cheated on...been dumped...i know i never been into a relationship..but trust me girl..i know how it feel...for them if we girls dump them or cheat on them...they will call us all sort of name...sundal la..playgirl la...bitch la..pelacur la..etc...then how about them?????? so they have all the right to do so..and we girls dont?come on la..we learn it for you guys also..farah i not askin you to do that...but all i could say is kalau jodoh tk ke mana....but i dont think its him la....

but someone who will appreciate every little thing you do for him.....sooo unlike him!!and treat you like princess...look at you like the first time he meets you on every date...and love you like there is no tomorrow..now i sound like some love novel..hahaha!!farah i know i have said this before and sure i gonna say it again...think wisely..decide wisely...your two bitches will always be there for you and you know that very well...we love bitch!

before i click on publish post..i just wanna answer some un-answer question....

for the record...i am staright people...and its not because i never been into relationship before iam not la...aiyoooo....tsk3.iam just not ready into all this...just look at my bitches problem about their bf....seriously i dont want to be in their shoe...stressing sia!!!and about alif sleeq..hahaha!!

iam just a fan...nothing more than that...it was just a random joke..now iam just focusin on my future..that only yesterday i realise that iam turnin 18 this year and in 2 year iam 20..sooo no time to waste...all the love shit thingy...i guess it will come naturally..its like a butterfly..if you run after the butterfly,the butterfly will fly far away..and you will not get it..but if you sit down quietly... that butterfly will come to you by its own.....get what i mean???

-love-

got nothing better to do!!

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: plain water
2. Last phone call: faiz
3. Last text message: khalisah
4. Last song you listened to: mariah carey-my all
5. Last time you cried:4 days ago
6. Dated someone twice: never
7. Been cheated on: countless...
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: never had one!
9. Lost someone special:mum
10. Been depressed: Definitely
11. Been drunk and threw up: nope!!!soon!hahaha!!
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. deep purple
13. White
14. black
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Uh'huh
16. Fallen out of love: IDK
17. Laughed until you cried: can i say every time i meet my bitches!!
18. Met someone who changed you: No one can change me.
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Who cares man,they lack of attention.
22.How many kids do you want to have: 4 and below...
24. Do you have any pets: no..but i love to have a kitten!
25. Do you want to change your name: Nope.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: i was working
27. What time did you wake up today: 11am
What were you doing at midnight last night: Online talking to farah and ica
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: look beautiful..and graduate!!
30. Last time you saw your Mother: 2 yrs 4 month ago
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: To be a more patient and appreciative sister and daugther.
32. What are you listening to right now: sleeq-my spy
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: I ate him after we talked,his name is Tom Yam.
34.What's getting on your nerves right now:my studies!!
35. Most visited webpage: facebook.com,blogspot.ebay.forever 21...youtube!
36. Whats your real name: zahidah knowles
37. Nicknames: zie......nur(mum used to called)girl(at home)
38. Relationship Status: single,mingle,jingle,with the dingle!!!
39. Zodiac sign: scoprio
40. Male or female?: female
41. Elementary?:park view Primary School.
42. Middle School?: coral Secondary School
43. High school/college?: ITE simei
.44. Hair colour: black mixture of dark brown!
45. Long or short: long.
46. Height: 17847 cm.
Do you have a crush on someone?*blushing*ALIF SLEEQ!hahaha!!but no hope...
48: What do you like about yourself?:eyes...my loudest
49. Piercings: ear..
50. Tattoos: no..clean!
51. Righty or lefty: huh?
52. First surgery: nope!
53. First piercing: ear!only the ear!!
54. First best friend: vanessa danker
55. First sport you joined: huh!!sport!no thanks!!
56. First vacation: puket...thailand
58. First pair of trainers:this got to do with sport right,,,then i dun noe!
59. Eating: yes..duh!!
60. Drinking: nah'uh
61. I'm about to: Change to a next song
62. Listening to: beyonce-flaws and all
63. Waiting on: Nothing.

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: Yes.
65. Get Married?: alif!!!duh!!!
66. Career?: a radio DJ..or a tv host..radio presenter...all of them got to do with talking!!

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs.
69. Shorter or taller: taller
70. Older or Younger: older or same age!
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Armss.
73. Sensitive or loud: Loud.
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: trouble maker!!

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: Gile pe.
77. Drank hard liquor: no
78. Lost glasses/contacts: countless times!
79. Sex on first date: no!!never had a bf also!!!hahaha!!
80. Broken someone's heart: idk...
82. Been arrested: For snipping my armpit hair and sold it as weed.
83. Turned someone down: Yes
.84. Cried when someone died: Yup.
85. Fallen for a friend?: Hee.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: need to!!
87. Miracles: Yes!
88. Love at first sight: Ye saye!
89. Heaven: In the name of Allah,Yes.
90. Santa Claus: my brother is the real one k.Santa Claus fake.
91. Kiss on the first date: nope!
92. Angels: Yes.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: never had one.=)
95. Did you sing today?: Yes in the toilet(home),in the lift(alone)hahaha!!
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Noo.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: I'll go back to year 2000 and tell my mum to eat her medicice so that she wont fall sick....
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: idk.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: I'm having phobias already.YES.
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: only the truth,nothing but the truth!!!

copy and paste quiz for aliah's blog....

Besides lips,where is your favourite spot to get kiss?-neck.

How do you feel when you wake up in this morning?feel like throwin up..

Who was the last person you took photo with.?my darling farah and khalisah

Would you consider yourself to be spoiled? hell no!

Would you ever donate blood?yes...

Have you ever had a bestfriend who was the opposite sex? yup!

Do you want someone dead?the bird that keeps coming inside my house...and shit all over at my floor and iam the one that have to clean their shit!!!

What does the last message say?taktahu.haha tgk ah-send by khalisah.

What are you thinking right now?i wanna go and sleep!!

Do you wish someone with you right now?yes..always did...my mum.

What time you went to bed last night? 3am

Where did you buy the T-shirt that you're wearing now?its free...its say DKNY

Is someone in your mind?yes.....ALIF!!!hhahaah!!

Who was the last person who texted you? khalisah

10 people tagged to do this quiz-IDK..... IF YOU WANT DO JUST COPY AH, LAZY TO TAGG PEOPLE..

just to update.....=)

OMG!!its so dusty in here.....*hashoosoo*coughing*....-__-hahahaha!!how are you guys doing?!(omg zahidah why are you talkin like some sort of superstar...stop it ehk)i got alot of fans requesting me to update my blog as you can see at my taggy....(zahidah u are doing it again...stop it!!)hahaha!!!iam just gonna do some random shit here....had an FZKS day out at haji lane(i cabot school!!*pointing finger at farah ica and syaf*)school suppose to end at 4.30.."i end it" at 2.30....hahahaha!!!sorry rose to leave u alone!!!=(
did nothing.....just window -shoppin.....we are "dry" what do expect!!!but F and S did bought stuff.....
i really fuckin miss them!!miss our old days...*sob2*and for the first time iam early!!!haha!!yah like seriously.....not kiddin...but actually...F came first and then me...we met at pasir ris mrt platform....then WE HAVE TO WAIT FOR TWO BITCHES FOR ALMOST AN HOUR!!YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!!!so we made good use of that hour to do what we are good at....GOSSIP! tell me about it....so we talk about this and that....iam tellin you when NUR ZAHIDAH AND FARAHLINA gossip we are much much worse then the gossip girl..*shakein head*seriously....dont leave us alone....scary u know!!hahaha!!

aites i wanna say sumthing...i wanna say what i wanna say and iam gonna say it right here!!
c'mon ppl....have your own fashion sense...dont be a follower..like....dog..to be harsh!
if you want to be like another person that you are following...you are not being yourself..
its best to be yourself...its annoying when you come out with your own fashion and suddenly some assholes dress like you...how do feel????huh?huh?huh?sooooooooo stop it!!this post is not to label on anyone but on what i obverse at bugis....and F i know what you mean copy and paste!!hahahaha!!!!
and to the assholes in my class....two for them actually...i just gonna label them as lame and dumb.

first stop....lame.fuck you....and your stupid ass lame joke!!its not funny btw!!you are like the stupidest lame fuckin annoyin guy i ever met in my entire life bitch!!! go get a damn life and stop bothering ppl...we hate you! and seriously.... if you ever disturb me again...u seriously need a new face asshole!!dont try me....

second...dumb.dont think you are handsome and all minah bawa blk is runnin after you are like some sort of a big shot!!guess what...you're not...!!accpect the fact bitch!you go around sayin you hate this person hate that person....who the fuck are you to say that!!if you hate the person so much!! dont mix or talk to the person!! boy....u seriously have to change your secondary mode to mature mode....and if you hate us...WE HATE YOU MORE!!grow up please!thanks!




and i yesterday i dreamt about mr obama!!! president of the states!!! seriously!!! i was shakein hand with him!!!with thousand of camera light flicking!!!!!hahahaha!!!then and my idiotic sister wakes up.....-__-!!!!!

love you FARAH.KHALISAH.SYAFIQAH.HASYIQA.
and of course...my darling new friends ROSE.TITI.


i love you alif!!!!!!!!hahahaha!!


bye...
i try my fuckin best to upload pic...

-love-

LIKE OMG!!!

alif sleeq actually talk to me on MSN on wednesday at 8.15 to 8.29pm!!!!!!hahahaha!!!!!omg!!
omg!!omg!!omg!!!i was sreaming all the way when i was talkin to him...!!!but when i reply him..step cool je...!!!hahahahahaha!!!i was like so...yah sleeq yah...think i care...local.... small la...
hahahaah!!pade hal!!pade hal!!he was so friendly!!omg!!!ailah jealous...hahahaha!!*evil laugh*
i know i guys kaypo...want to know what we love bird were talkin rite!!!
(convo at MSN.... mr alif and mrs alif)
*mrs alif saw mr alif online*

mrs alif:is this alif sleeq...for real?

mr alif:yup..hahaha!!

mrs alif at home:OMG ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGHHHHHGHFGHGHGHG!!!!!!!

mrs alif:ouh...hahaha!hey.....!!

mr alif:hahahaha!!

mrs alif at home:what should i ask!!what should ask him!!!omg!!!

mrs alif at home:*still blank*...*still in shock*....alah...nvm la...diam je...=( maybe bz with other fans.....
(no convo about 15 sec)

mr ailf:so whatsup?

mrs alif at home:OMG!!!did he just whatsup me!!!!!omg!!

mrs alif:nothing...just bz with school....nothing much....

mrs alif at home:wtf did i just say!!!stupid ye kau zahidah!!

mrs alif:then u?schoolin?yes...no?

mr alif:yup....iam actually bz doing my presentation of twrw....

mrs alif:ouh...

mr alif:hey...i gtg!we talk soon okay?

mrs alif:okay...sure!

mr alif:bye!

mrs alif:bye!

mrs alif at home:*faint*

after that i got fever!!!!serious!!iam not kiddin!!!love sick!!!hahahaa!!

i seriously can see our future together....having kids... happily married......its shining sooooooooo brightly!!!hahahahahaa!!

-love-

flaws and all

yes...like my flaws is so obvious....iam fat...i look much more ugly when iam taking pictures...seriously...i realise it today..(not really today la..but sometime back....)when was having my photoshoot...i really pity jonathan because i spolit him pic...he really took nice shoots but he pick a wrong model...he pick me!he really wanted to have a high mark...btw this photoshoot was his like so called his exam and also model that he picks is marks counted...and i screw it....bad!i really love taking picture...but my face...body...OMG!after the shoot... jon show the pic to me...i also cried!!i look so bad!!but he keep on sayin no la!!nice!!awsome girl!!i love it!!u have the tyra bank eyes...lip!like omg iam so jealous rite now!!u pose like a pro model!!
-__- yah right.....
i was so fed up with myself...i didnt really gave what jon wants...haiiii....he shouldnt have pick me.....and alot of people actually say iam beuatiful la....sweet la....cute la...(but i agree with cute because alif did say i was cute!!hahaha!!)all that shit la....and if i say i never had a bf before...they will be like... serious!u r a liar la!!kau bedek la!!!tipu tk agak2 la!fuck the what la!!i only speak the truth only the truth and nothing but the truth!!i get nothing if i lie....and if i deny them about sayin me iam beuatiful...they will say i have low self esteem...but trust me ppl....iam not..i noe myself better then u guys....

and ppl say...sometime guys will not go for looks but heart...MY FOOT LA!!no such thing as that this days....now is like... face like megan fox...body like beyonce than u can be mine...i dont care if the "below" is loose.... but if its loose...better...!!that is the REAL world or should i say most of the mindset of guys now days....(omg...sick right!!!)iam not tryna say that all guys are like that but...the good ones are all taken...=(
and iam not sayin all this to have or force any one to be my bf!!!i just wanna let it out!i always felt the heart ache...but never the love...werid right!!but its true......my close friends should know....

but i will not just sit down here...and hoping to change overnight!this is my plan...
1.burn those nasty fats(gym obviously....no pill!)
2.spa(clean off the spot2 on my face)
3.mole remove???i need you guys for this....suggestion please!!yes...no?leave suggestion on my taggy please!!
4.braces
5.do something if the panda eyes!!

so readers if you have any suggestion beside what i listed up there...feel free to leave comment at my taggy.....=)i really need you guys to help me...(not to harsh aites..haha!)i always wanted to look persentable...nice..but dont worry...zahidah will always be zahidah...=)
and obviously iam not doing this to get a bf......fuckin no way i gonna do this for any assholes!!not the time yet....

gtg!

-love-

miss her loadz.....=(

its been two years since my mummy pass away.....i misss her so much...not like i dont miss my abah but....he pass away when i was 6 going 7....when he left i seriously dont know a thing... i was a kid...what do you expect...!after a year my abah died then i understood what was going on....after i got to know what is life and death..and when someone is gone...that person is really gone...
about my mummy....i was lost and upset...i wasnt myself the first two month she died...i couldnt control myself if i see a daugther and mother going shoppin or eating together...holding hand...i didnt had that chance...she had stroke when i was 9..just after a few year my abah died...that is when i can say i have didnt have my parents love since i was 9...i was independent at that tender age...iam not blameing her for that...that is our family fate...she suffer alot...in the 7 year she was having stroke...the pain...how she see me behaving badly as i grew up...she cried alot for me..iam such an asshole who dont give a damn on her tears...and i was fucking rude towards her...i seriously hate myself for doing that to her... and i think i been punish by doing that to her..and i deserve it..about my mummy even she is having that illness she cant talk...she cant move alot... she still show care and love towards me...but i cant see that..she still can forgive her kids even after what we did to her....her heart is like a rare jewel...the love that she gave to us is soooo pirceless...its much more expensive that anything that you can find in this stupid world..
after she left...it was like a slap on my face...i didnt know what i was suppose to do w/o her...
i didnt realise that i needed her sooo much..even at the age of 16 when she died..most of us think that we dont need our parent at that age.. we are so called "mature"we can handle things on our own...but trust me...we are not.we still need them.....many for us thinks that our parents like to pick on us...hate us..dont care about us...nag like there is no tomorrow...but the reason they are doing that is because they love us...that is how they show their love to us..they dont want us to repeat the mistake that we did....make it short for our own good!and for the reader who hate your parent for what they did as what i listed up there....think a million times if you guys still wants to hate them after u guys read this...trust me u guys will miss them nagging at your butt after there are gone...really gone... no such thing as mak angkat or bapak angkat...the love they gave you is not the same as what your bio parent is giving to you......trust me.

so guys cherish them while you can...they will leave you one day...no times to hate.

you guys must be wondering why out of sudden..i post about my mummy..its because i cant stand missing
her i have to let it out somewhere....so here it is.



as for mother's day me sis,bro,syahzani,matin and that old bitch...is gonna visit our dearest mummy's grave...me and sis plan to buy our mummy fav flower rose....as in the stalks la...not the petals..!and i decide to buy the mother's day flower...hmmmm...what is the flower name...i forgot la!!!and also roses...and obviously pray for her so that she is in peace somewhere up there...

love u ami.....

i try to post my mummy pic...to show u guys how fair and flawless she is...and how young she looks... and her real age is much more older then she looks...



i just wish i could have her back...i will do anything...just anything to have her back..but ...i guess it wont happen...i just have to let it go....she is much more happier up there.....

-love-